I wonder what it will be like seeing Jesus for the first time…

After all the time spent getting to know someone so deeply who you’ve never seen, never touched, never spoken to directly…all of it will change in a moment and suddenly there’s no more hoping anymore, no more wondering anymore, no more waiting anymore…

Jesus will be right there in front of your face.

Staring into your soul.

Touching your hand.

Embracing you.

Satisfying the deepest places of lack in your heart.

Finally.

I’ve always wondered how Jesus will be able to be with everybody in the New Heaven and New Earth if there will be so many people up there…

I just don’t know what I would do if I had to wait in line to see Jesus!

Waiting in line to see Jesus?

Hmm…

I would get so antsy waiting to see Him!

I don’t know if I could wait…I would find myself cutting the line and sneaking up to Him tapping Him on the shoulder from behind. Jesus, I’m sorry but I just couldn’t wait in line to see You…I need to see You now! But what about everyone else? I can’t just cut everyone else. Natalie, be patient…I will see you shortly… Sigh. But No, Jesus, I need You now! Please don’t make me wait anymore… I can see it now all playing out. Surely Jesus wouldn’t tell me to go away…

Surely this is not how it will be!

Surely we won’t have to wait in line to see Him!

So I try to remember He is omnipresent. God’s Word says He is everywhere and always with us (Jeremiah 23:23-24, Isaiah 57:15, Acts 17:27, Ephesians 4:6, Psalm 139:7-9).

But I still wrestle with this fear because, logistically, how can one physical entity be with me and be with everyone else too when we are all together in eternity?

The Bible says in Revelation 21 that there will be no crying in heaven and no pain. No sorrow and no anxiety. Nothing bad!

Yet when I think about having to share Jesus with billions of other people it makes me think I will hardly get to see Him and it stresses me out. But I don’t want to take away other people’s opportunity to see and be with Jesus either. So what will we do? If there is no stress in heaven, I know I won’t be stressed out. So somehow it has to work out and be okay.

I just hope that God is able to be with every single person at the same time in some supernatural way that only He can do!

Then I wonder…

What if Jesus gets sick of me?

I just want to go and find Jesus wherever He is and be with him 24/7 so I fear that He will get tired of me wanting to be with Him all of the time. What if He is having an important discussion with someone really high-up like Moses or Peter or his own mother Mary and then I’m right there having to wait to get to be with Him. I don’t want Jesus to get tired of me for always trying to be with Him. I get so scared that I will scare Him away.

I really need God to help me with these fears. Because I’m realizing that the way I view my future relationship with Jesus in Heaven is also what I fear in real relationships. I fear loving someone so much that I lose them. I fear pushing them away.

So I’m asking the Lord to help me see me the way He sees me and to believe that He does want to be with me just as much as I want to be with Him.

I love this verse in Jeremiah 31:3 as a reminder to my heart that Jesus loves me more than I believe:

“the Lord appeared to him from far away.
I have loved you with an everlasting love;
therefore, I have continued to extend faithful love to you.” (emphasis mine)

We all need to focus on the “continued to” part.

I know I do.

God loving you is a continual thing, not a one-time thing.

Real love never stops.

Real love never gets tired of you.

Real love never neglects you.

Real love pursues you forever no matter what.

Jesus won’t stop loving me. He wont stop loving you either! No matter how much I think I’m bugging Him, no matter what I do to fail Him, no matter how I mess up, Jesus will never get tired of me. He will never get tired of you. He will continue to love me. He will continue to love you. I can’t even describe how much this truth comforts.

I want you to know that Jesus will love you forever and He will never get tired of you being with Him!

I mean, Jesus possesses a kind of love that is radically different from anything we could fathom…He loves sinful people like you and I…and He came and died while we were still in the middle of our mess…He extends His hand to us while we are still in the middle of our mess…that’s love! Love that will never stop! Love that you can count on. Love that goes on and on and on…

Romans 5:7-8 affirms this,

“For one will hardly die for a righteous man; though perhaps for the good man someone would dare even to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” (emphasis mine)

That’s love.

My heart is at peace knowing this kind of love exists.

It’s what reminds me that God’s omnipresence has to be real because if God loves us that much, there is no way that we will be left standing in line waiting to see Him in Heaven.

He will make a way to be with each and every one of us all of the time. That’s just what I believe. I know Jesus’ heart of love would not neglect any one of His children even for one second. So we can be confident that we will have access to Jesus forever at every moment.

Let your heart be refreshed today knowing there will come a day when we get to step into eternity with God forever. And I pray for you that you would know God loves you and He will never get tired of you! He will never grow weary with you! He will never stop loving you! It’s not possible. Let Him love you. I pray that you would be overcome with peace and comfort today. Thank you, Jesus.

“Then I heard a loud voice from the throne:

“Look! God’s dwelling is with humanity,
and He will live with them.
They will be His people,
and God Himself will be with them
and be their God.

⁴ He will wipe away every tear from their eyes.
Death will no longer exist;
grief, crying, and pain will exist no longer,
because the previous things have passed away.”

-Revelation 21:3-4-

“Shine A Light” by Elevation Church