Forgive yourself. You thought you could kill me, but you realized it doesn’t work like that. My soul will live forever. No one can interfere with that or pull a trigger that takes my breath away. Did it take your breath away when you fell in love with me? You fell in love with me. And you saw the effects of it right in front of you in clear view under the starry sky.

Did I fall in love with you? I knew it was true that I fell in love with a killer when the butterfly tunes sounded as harmonic blues in the wake of the night watch. You knew I heard you. But I didn’t know it would kill me. I fell in love with a killer. But he never made me feel in danger. I was never the target. Or was I? Love had an arrow pointed at me from the start. I meant to guard it. My heart. But I couldn’t guard it any longer with every movement of his proximity. It claimed me. Does it kill me? To see the blood on his hands? I never saw my blood on his hands. Only blood on my heart. Only blood on my soul.

How do I let it go? I thought I had. Then I see the bruises and the scars are deeper than I thought. But Jesus you’re stronger than I know. My spirit’s higher than the earth. So love cannot kill me like the hunted and endangered. Love cannot take away my life.

You know what I realized even more? I didn’t fear death. I feared life without what he made me feel. Death does not own me nor does it control me. But love has the barometer of my heart.

Let love speak of my immortality. For though love slay me, my spirit lives freely for all eternity. I still trust in my Savior and my God. 💗

Love cannot kill me, though it pierces me through the heart of deepest sorrow. Love won’t wreck me, though it bruises me like a purple speckled avocado. It’s softened now. The heart I never thought would break. I’ll be brave anyways. I’ll sing and retrace the steps that paved the way to make me the lioness I am. My God is within me. I will not fall.

God’s love will watch over you. Give Him the memories you hold onto.

I want you to know you can let go of me now… God’s love never lets go.

Romans 8:18
1 John 5:11